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                      The Force and Origin of all being—GOD—created all that is through the gracious pleasure and intention of His Eternal Mind, the LOGOS eternally present with Him before all creation—even of such powers as may be, and most probably are—lying in their ordered place between us, free-willed and intelligent, feeling creatures, intended to return love and adoration, and to that end inspired by the kindred Spirit proceeding from Father and Son, Who brooded over all creation at its outset, its very beginning.   The reason into which we have grown according to His Providence has come to knowledge beyond the animal instincts in which we were created through the process of evolution, including the relatively recent theory by which we have organized our knowledge of that creation—eohistory, as it were.  We perceive in ourselves the remaining traces and forces, genetically implanted instincts, inherited from our more animal ancestors, perhaps chief among them the life force that expresses itself in human sexuality.  In my sleeplessness, I am more subject to the pressure of that force upon my instincts, desires and imaginations. It is perhaps a culpable degree of regression by which I have this morning indulged myself in my sexuality, which is homosexual and sado-masochistic, the two expressions probably conjoined in a significant percentage of human individuals as part of the intended process of human self-assertion that civilized reason now perceives, and I perceive through Grace, to be at this point in human development,  excessive,  essentially primitive and, as it were, outmoded, and thus mistaken, but surely to some extent necessary in my and others’ cases, and to some extent allowable, and always, through the Grace of the Self-Incarnating Father, forgiveable.